I hate this… Here I am in the middle of plans to finally build myself a decent gaming system. The new nVidia cards came out and I’m pretty much settled on the devices I’m going to get. But I can never seem to actually GET OUT AND WORK! The first time I went to work, I got about half a week done before I realized that my certification exams were just around the corner, and I took a week and a half to get that all done… Then, once that was out of the way, I started working for another half a week and then I got sick because nobody knows how to isolate themselves for the good of the family. Then, I get well and I work for about half a week and then my leg acts up and does it’s crappy stupid thing it’s been doing for the past two years, and I can’t stand up for longer than 10 minutes or so.
I am severely ticked off… I have absolutely nothing to do with my time. This is why working this summer was going to work out so well! I barely talk with any of my online friends anymore (save Capella), so there’s no random Skype sessions or projects or games that anyone wants to draw me into. (Not that anyone ever takes me up on the offers if I ask.) I pretty much sit around all day and browse SLIZone and watch Deep Space Nine… So I’ve been working, instead. But I can never get going long enough to amass a healthy amount of money.
I have no idea what it is… It feels like a pinched nerve in my left upper-leg. It’s on the inside, not on the back, like that infamous sciatic nerve, or on the front or on the outside… Everything below my knee feels absolutely great, and I can move my foot around and bend my knee to my heart’s content, but when I start moving my upper leg around, this piercing pain flares up. I can’t move it, I can’t stand on it. It can move with help (like grabbing it with hands and lifting it), so I don’t think it’s the muscles themselves. When I’m sitting or laying down, it just aches and throbs with every heart beat… I can’t move my leg, so the longer I have this condition, the more stiff my entire body gets and it progressively gets a whole heck of a lot worse before it starts getting better. I’ve been taking calcium-magnesium supplements every day, with a pair of acetaminophen every night at supper to knock out residual pain for the rest of the night… Until I actually get to bed, because by then, it’s worn off and it starts aching again. When I wake up the next day, I’ll learn that I’ve twisted the wrong way in my sleep last night and I’ve gone and hurt something, plus… It’s stiff as all heck, and it takes me 10 minutes to whip into shape enough to get out of bed.
If anyone has any ideas, I’m open to suggestions… No doctors. That’s a suggestion I’ve heard plenty of, so I already know that’s an option. By the time I ever think it’s bad enough to actually go to a doctor, it’s gone. To be honest, I haven’t had this for almost exactly an entire year. The last time I had it was for a couple weeks during my semester before last… In the fall, when I had to drive to math class. Been perfectly fine ever since. I thought it might have been my laying and sitting around all day that cramped something up back then, but I’ve been standing and working for the last several days, so I’m not sure what it is anymore. It all started back several years ago when we were moving out an incredibly heavy corn-burning stove. I think I lifted the wrong way, and I had my first attack a few days later. Then off and on the rest of my life.
When it gets better, I’m going to start working and exercizing… I keep trying to do that periodically, but it never sticks because there’s nothing wrong with me at the time. (And we all know how humans tend to forget the bad things that’ve happened to them in the past.) So… I don’t know. I’m open to suggestions on what to do. Maybe there’s some vitamin supplement or herbal tea or something to help relax muscles? I need to get this over with so I CAN WORK! This is driving me nuts… Everyone on the forums is getting new computers and here I am, stuck with the perfect plan, but I can’t actually do anything because I can never work for longer than 4 days at a time… UGH! At this rate, it’ll be another freakin’ year before I have enough to buy a computer…